Independent Man




































I've finally went to see this movie called "Inside Man" by Spike Lee Joint. It was great! Also I was happy that I went to see it alone, because it's been a long time since I went see a flick by myself. My ex used to tell me "You're not independent, you need people around you, you can't do things on your own." Now I believe that I can enjoy myself, and my time alone.

P.S. Jodie Foster is hott in this movie, especially the way she walked with her Stilettos on... She was definitely working it.

This is Cool.

This is the start. I'm also working on a project way cooler than this.
Be prepared.

* The project requires more time than I thought. Ha ha ha...

State of Mind.

I want to explode.
My life is full of challenges.. not just talking about relationship with others. One thing after another. It's never too easy.

There are only few people who knows me well and sometimes I feel like even they cannot handle me at all.

Am I that much of trouble?

Am I that difficult? Or am I that ignorant?

I think, I'm all three.

Spring is Here!







































































Back in Korea, my friends & I have a picnic when cherries blossomed.
And I miss that, a lot.

Dear Beautiful.

I remember..
when I saw you for the first time,
Everything paused for a while.
All I could do was stare.. stare...
You were just beautiful.

It has been such a long time
When my heart raced to someone.
It was you who had me,
It was you who knew me.

I wanted your body,
I wanted your soul.
It was me who lived in his own head,
It was me who made his own plans.

I remember..
One cold night at your bedside,
Seeing your eyes looking over me.
I couldn't ask for more,
I was in heaven.
You were so beautiful.

But I must let you go..
Because I'm still living in my head.
Time is right for you to go,
Far away where you can span your wings...
Far away where you can find your ground.

I will miss your smell.
I will miss your smile.
I will always remember, your eyes..
Oh, you are so beautiful.


I love you Jeni.


-Your Shadow.

At Home.




































It only takes me about 3 minutes to have a fire like this.

On Demand.





































































This is the shit for me right now.
She reminds me of this particular hottie I know...

Feeling.

I have seen fear. I have seen faith.
Seen the look of anger on your face.
And if you want to talk about what will be,
Come and sit with me, and cry on my shoulder,
I'm a friend.

And if you want to talk about it anymore,
Lie here on the floor and cry on my shoulder,
I'm a friend.

Trust Me...The Pleasure is All Mine.

I've not worked for about a month and I love every minute of it!

Baby Boy.



Only B&W can capture him; Rocco.

Inconveniences.

Not having a car to get around sucks. I feel like a teen all over again.

Dear You.

How I wish I could surrender my soul;
Shed the clothes that become my skin;
See the liar that burns within my needing.
How I wish I'd chosen darkness from cold.
How I wish I had screamed out loud,
Instead I've found no meaning.

I guess it's time I run far, far away; find comfort in pain,
All pleasure's the same: it just keeps me from trouble.
Hides my true shape, like Dorian Gray.
I've heard what they say,but I'm not here for trouble.
It's more than just words: it's just tears and rain.

How I wish I could walk through the doors of my mind;
old memory close at hand,
Help me understand the years.
How I wish I could choose between Heaven and Hell.
How I wish I would save my soul.I'm so cold from fear.

I guess it's time I run far, far away; find comfort in pain,
All pleasure's the same: it just keeps me from trouble.
Hides my true shape, like Dorian Gray.
I've heard what they say, but I'm not here for trouble.
Far, far away; find comfort in pain.
All pleasure's the same: it just keeps me from trouble.
It's more than just words: it's just tears and rain.

First Time For Everything.






































This blows big time, but
the materials are replaceable... I get to live another day.

Weird.

This morning, I've heard this song at three different places.

You're Beautiful

My life is brilliant.
My love is pure.
I saw an angel.
Of that I'm sure.
She smiled at me on the subway.
She was with another man.
But I won't lose no sleep on that,
'Cause I've got a plan.

You're beautiful. You're beautiful.
You're beautiful, it's true.
I saw you face in a crowded place,
And I don't know what to do,
'Cause I'll never be with you.

Yeah, she caught my eye,
As we walked on by.
She could see from my face that I was,
Fu*king high,
And I don't think that I'll see her again,
But we shared a moment that will last till the end.

You're beautiful. You're beautiful.
You're beautiful, it's true.
I saw you face in a crowded place,
And I don't know what to do,
'Cause I'll never be with you.
You're beautiful. You're beautiful.
You're beautiful, it's true.
There must be an angel with a smile on her face,
When she thought up that I should be with you.
But it's time to face the truth,
I will never be with you.

Cool Bumper Sticker

"I Think, So I'm Dangerous."

I'm Sorry.

Recently, one of my co-workers lost his mother-in-law. He and his wife were taking it fairly easy since her health wasn't at the best of condition. It seems they’ve been expecting it to happen. Then a month and a half later, his father went to a hospital for having a heart attack. He told us that they operated on his father and he's doing much better.

Two weeks after, we've received the bad news. His father passed away at the hospital while he was asleep. There were a thick and heavy air circulating this building. I could not imagine what he had to go through. You've lost one of your parents who created you then raised you through all of these years. I've felt very sorry for his loss.

When he showed up at work later that morning, most of us who knew the news went to pay their respect to him. I waited for a few minutes then went to see him at his desk. He was sitting upright and looking at his computer screen; his hand was on the mouse like he wanted to do something or act busy. I didn't know what to say for a while. He looked up at me from his chair, and I hugged him. He was silent, he didn't say a word. I kept patting him on his back and told him that I was sorry. He nodded his head while looking at his computer screen. I've told him his father is in a better place now and he's looking down at his son from the above. He started to let his tears run down on his face... He grabbed my hand then kept pondering it on his chest. Then started to mumble... "Let's do business, let’s do business" (note: this is one of my favorite saying at work. My co-workers love to use it when they are working on deals). He calmed himself down then told me he appreciates.

Sometimes people need others to help out on situations. I'm not saying that I deserve a recognition for what I did. As I noticed many of employees "just" dropping by then saying their "sorry for the lost," I managed to spend a few minutes with him to share my condolences... Then we're in a mutually respecting place where I understand his lost and he appreciates my intention.

Hey Rob, sorry for your lost. I know, you're doing your best to overcome this sadness... Don't forget, all of us are here to help each other when one of us is down...

Rob, let's do business!

Wise Guy.




Dana, thank you for your support.
Once again, you've proven your wisdom.

Gone.

I don't know what's worth fighting for
Or why I have to scream
I don't know why I instigate
And say what I don't mean
I don't know how I got this way
I know it's not all right
So I'm breaking the habit
I'm breaking the habit tonight.



Forget the nonessentials.
It's time put on my business suit.

Wait!

My super superior (a.k.a: ss) hasn't replied yet on my vacation request. I bet he didn't read it yet.. If tomorrow is my day off, and he'll be off on Thursday.. so knowing my luck, I'll get to find out on Friday, even Monday.. Damn, I do have an appointment tomorrow!.. No, you CAN drive in this weather!.. you need to come in tonight so I don't have to on my dayoff.. Ok, you're scare of this weather?.. ok, ok, I'll see you tomorrow.. and you need to be on time.. I need to get my haircut tomorrow.. It will be cold tomorrow.. What's for lunch tomorrow?.. I want to do lunch with her tomorrow.. Or dinner?.. I dunno.. wait, they said it will be freezing at night.. her room stays at 60 degrees.. I do not get blackets to survive that indoor weather.. why am I thinking so much?.. but the room smells awesome.. Cool ass kitty too.. now I'm thinking way too much.. Damn, late again...

I need my vacation processed.

Snow Day.

Man, it's snowing! Well, it's not snowing heavily but I'm excited to see the "first snow day" of the year.