I Guess This One's a Copy, Too.















If you only knew...

Get Your Facts Straight.






I had this post up back in September.
To be more specific, originally, I embeded this video on a post from
"videocodezone.com" and the person who posted this video
decided to take it off.
In result, my post got a blank screen, so I took it off.

Now someone put it back on "youtube.com" therefore here it is. Yet again.

Copying... My ass.

Sadness.

Yes,

I am the biggest loser of all the history of mankind.

Goodbye.

What ravages of spirit
conjured this temptuous rage,
created you a monster,
broken by the rule of love?
And fate has led you through it.
You do what you have to do.
And fate has led you through it.
You do what you have to do.

And I have the sense to recognize
that I don't know how to let you go.

Every moment marked
with apparitions of your soul.
I'm ever swiftly moving,
trying to escape this desire,
the yearning to be near you.
I do what I have to do.
The yearning to be near you.
I do what I have to do.

And I have the sense to recognize
that I don't know how to let you go.
I don't know how to let you go.

A glowing ember, burning hot,
And burning slow.
Deep within, I'm shaken by the violence
of existing for only you.

I know I can't be with you.
I do what I have to do.
I know I can't be with you.
I do what I have to do.

And I have the sense to recognize
But I don't know how to let you go.
I don't know how to let you go.

Note To Self.

Get a grip, Albert.

Why?















I heard an Hydraulic system lowering the vehicle for an easy access for it's passengers.

So much for being a 'disabled' these days.

Dear You.

Rare Moment.


My eyes got teary while listening to a song...


I've found Judy Garland.

Rocco.


























Yup. He is resting on top of a refrigirator.
He eats, drinks, and sleeps...
Besides what else does he do when he's not on top of a refrigirator?




Cuddle up in a kitchen-sink.














That's my boy, Rocco.

From an Old Stash

I've put this video on because of the song.
So don't let those goofy Japanese bastards make you laugh.



Title: My Lover's Box.
Album: Garbage. 1995.
Artist: Garbage

Thoughts.

She said,

"why don't you come here and take care of this relationship?"

I went, I saw, I was not welcome.

What caused her to miss me?

What caused her to ignore me?

I was in a Wonderland all by myself.

As she would've said, "I told you so"

Even so, at least I've been to a Wonderland.

Disclaimer.

"When using any driving directions or map, it's a good idea to do a reality check and make sure the road still exists, watch out for construction, and follow all traffic safety precautions. This is only to be used as an aid in planning." - Yahoo Maps.


P.S. Three of my thoughts ensemble that statement.

Good Conversation.

her: What is my favorite candle?

me: I think it starts with 'm' something?

her: No... You don't know what is my favorite candle.

me: I slip every now and then.

her: You are not a good stalker.

me: Yea... But I think, I know majority of the rest though.




* I almost did ask "What's the name of your favorite flower?"

Thank God for having a strength to hold myself back.
Hew, that was close.

Dark Side.


Yea, I think I'm depressed.

I fucking hate everybody.

An Unexpected Fun.

I had a chance to ride my brother's crotch-rocket tonight. I went to my usual hangout place to play some cards, and won. Yes! Then Randy wanted us ride (bikes) to Beale St. (Downtown of Memphis) because many bars were having a Bike Night. Randy is a 50ish man whom I met through automobile biz, and he happened to own a crotch-rocket himself.

As we were riding through streets of Downtown, at one stop light, I was in front of a police car. As usual, I was trying not to do anything stupid, I've heard a voice through the speaker saying "Git it*.. Come on.. Do it!" Cop was yelling through a speaker in his squad car telling me to take off real fast. At first, thought "oh, man what a cool ass cop," then my good side was telling me "Albert, don't fall for a stupid shit." After light has changed, I went slow to let him pass me, the funny thing was when he was passing me, again he motioned me to take off fast. Then I looked up, there was a cop sitting on next light. I was relieved... Cool Ass, Albert. Cool...

Ok, I need to fess up. Really funny thing was that after passing a "sitting still" squad car (cop no. 2), for some reason I thought that I just saw a red light in front of me. So, I stopped. For a while, I was waiting for lights to change. A brief moment later, I heard a voice through a speaker. "Start moving forward," the third cop ( he was behind of us ) was telling me to move. I looked around then realized myself standing still on middle of a street, and that red light was about 100ft away from me. While all of this was going on, the cop pulled his car next to my "sitting still" ass, yelling out the window "What the hell are you doing standing still on middle of a street for?" "move your damn bike." As soon as I heard his first shout, I put that damn bike in first gear, I was rolling... Of course, slow. As I was making my slow getaway, I looked on a rearview mirror, all I could see was a line of headlights from the cars were behind me. Thinking "shit, shit." "I'm so going to get stopped!". I needed a cop to tell my dumbass 'not' to stop on middle of a street! Dumb Ass, Albert. Dumb Ass!

I needed a cold one... Fast.

Beale St. was busy. There were bikers everywhere. Music, beer were flowing, and the hott chicks. Nice bikes, old ass bikes, chrome-everything bikes, girl riding a bike, girl on top of another girl on a bike.. lol

Randy and I decided to go park our rides then we ended up at Coyote Ugly. This is a new joint just opened about a month or so ago. I've never been in one, and boy was I glad that I did ( Randy was already 'planning' our next visit) The whole place was jamming with loud ass music ( mostly boot-scootin, Shania Twain still rocks! ) beer were icy cold, and the chicks! They were dancing all over the bar counter.
















I wished for better camera.

















The Bartender.

( yes, she is hott! )

Quiet honestly, I wasn't that impressed with the bar, however they had great atmosphere, full of energy, and yes, the bartender. I won't visit here too often, but it was an unexpected fun. If there is a next time, I'll might even throw on some Justin's boots... ha ha.
(can't do Wranglers just yet, need to upsize them)


"What the hell are you standing still on a middle of street for?"

I'm out.


* Git = As it sounds, it means Get.

Brief Silence.


Talk to you soon.

My Moment, And My Moment Only Please.

Yes, I've finally done it. I've went to a music concert on my own. The last music concert I've seen was back in Korea, 'Charity Concert from the Red Cross' hehe, yea, it was awesome.. right. They did had some of A celebrities appear, but mostly the B's and the C's.

Since then closest celebrity encounter I had was about 6 month ago, my friend Gary and I were in the Club 152, which is located in Beale St. (pretty famous street where Blues musicians made their legends), we're drinking and 'checking out' the crowds.. All of the sudden, Steven Seagal walks in to the joint! Gary looked at me then asked the obvious question, "hey, is that Steven Seagal?," I replied "Yea, dude. This is crazy. I've heard that he bought a house in Memphis, guess that's true." He got on the stage, put on a guitar, started to jamming away.

I've always been interested in music, but never 'organize' or 'plan' myself to attend an event or two. Also, Memphis isn't the place where many of artists schedule their concerts. (at least the 'ones' that I like to see).
We do have a big summer event which lot of artists performs, but I never wanted to be in that crowd.. Why? For a some reason, every year around that event, it rained.
The official name of that event is "Memphis In May Music Fest," but the locals call it the "Mud Fest" I tend to like some of artists comes through but nah, not me.
There are small concerts throughout the year, but I didn't find enough interests in them to go see. (and get muddy.. Right)

Ohhh, there was one time, I almost had a chance to see one of my fav. band Linkin Park in town, but that dumb ass Amber, then my ex-girlfriend's employee, supposed to hold my tickets then ended up selling my tickets to some stranger! She 'forgot the hold' part, and I think she was upset with her manager 'my ex,' oh well. Since then I haven't got inspired to go attend a music concert.

Last February, I've logged onto Jamesblunt.com and found out he's having a US Summer Tour, and schedules including Atlanta(Sat. 13th of May), Nashville(Sun. 14th), St. Louis(Mon. 15th).. See? Memphis wasn't in the plan. I've picked Nashville because it's the closest.

From Memphis to Nashville takes about 3hours, I've got there 2 hours early to do some sight seeing, then met this group.















Kelly, Micah, Holley
Cheers mates!

Concert was great!
Although I had this lady next to me who kept telling me not to "sing,"

























Finally,
I'll leave you with this...

Nice.




















We're going to have the 'Coyote Ugly' in Memphis.
I'll say, it's an improvement over singing 'country' karaoke songs on Thursday night.
















I literally felt my "already big" head getting bigger.


And, I couldn't help myself on this one.

Wishful Thinking.
















































































She is beautiful, smart, witty, intelligent, sarcastic, well-mannered, well dressed, and plays poker at same time.

Fort Minor




Dad, where'd you go?

Tune Connection.




Happy Birthday, Jen.

WTF?

I've been browsing through blogs to see what others are doing and saying..

Most of the blogs weren't readable.
(not the language, more like secret 'girlie-girl' types).

Some of them were too boring.
(maybe one or two entries.. come on, your last entry was Oct. 2004?).

There were many of 'broken hearts,' 'lost myselves', 'I hate whatevers'...

I flagged at least five blogs.
(not even good porns').

Lastly, I "had" to stop at this point.

click here!

Fort Minor.





Pretty cool beats.
"Thank God" Chester is not rapping.

p.s. What's up with a yellow t-shirt & a white hat? Jeez.

I Love This Game.


















Worm: You know what always cheers me up when I'm feeling shitty?

Mike: What?

Worm: Rolled up aces over kings.

Mike: Is that right?

Worm: Yeah. Check-raising stupid tourists and taking huge pots off of them.

Mike: Yea?

Worm: Stacks and towers of checks I can't even see over. Playing all-night High-Limit Hold'em at the Taj, "Where the Sand turns to Gold?"

(silence)...

Mike: Fuck it, let's go.

Worm: Don't tease me.

Mike: Let's go play some fucking cards.

In The Morning.

























Normally I would have sleep till noon. But today I had to do some work, and this is what I first noticed...

Easter Vigil.

I am the bread of life,
Those who come to me shall not hunger,
Those who believe in me shall not thirst.
No one can come to me
Unless the Father beckons them.

And I will raise you up,
On the last day.


Alleluia, Alleluia, Alleluia!
He lives!!!

Just For Me.

E pensando di lei
Mi sopragiunse uno soave sonno

Ego dominus tuus
Vide cor tuum
E d'esto core ardendo
Cor tuum
:Lei paventosa
Umilmente pascea.
Appreso gir lo ne vedea piangendo.

La letizia si convertia
In amarissimo pianto

Io sono in pace
Cor meum
Io sono in pace

Vide cor meum.


Lyric: Dante's La Vita Nuova.
Song: Patrick Cassidy.

Palm Sunday.

"Love so unspeakable, that I have felt for you. Love so unreachable, but as a gift, I give to you.

If this be possible may this cup pass prom me. Yet, not as I will but thy will, living in me.

This is my body, which I will give for you. This is my precious blood which will be shed freely for you.

Father forgive them, they know not what they do. Now, it is finished; my father I come to you."

-Cosgrove.

Cirque du Soleil.




















There was a woman who danced all night in (of course) her stilettos.




















Her body was so flexible, I couldn't help myself but, saying "ahhh," "ohhh," " wow."















Enough said.

American History.















I took this picture when I was sitting on a intersection to make a turn.

Just Great.



It's that feeling when you lost something and you look all over the place, and you finally find it.

Independent Man




































I've finally went to see this movie called "Inside Man" by Spike Lee Joint. It was great! Also I was happy that I went to see it alone, because it's been a long time since I went see a flick by myself. My ex used to tell me "You're not independent, you need people around you, you can't do things on your own." Now I believe that I can enjoy myself, and my time alone.

P.S. Jodie Foster is hott in this movie, especially the way she walked with her Stilettos on... She was definitely working it.

This is Cool.

This is the start. I'm also working on a project way cooler than this.
Be prepared.

* The project requires more time than I thought. Ha ha ha...

State of Mind.

I want to explode.
My life is full of challenges.. not just talking about relationship with others. One thing after another. It's never too easy.

There are only few people who knows me well and sometimes I feel like even they cannot handle me at all.

Am I that much of trouble?

Am I that difficult? Or am I that ignorant?

I think, I'm all three.

Spring is Here!







































































Back in Korea, my friends & I have a picnic when cherries blossomed.
And I miss that, a lot.

Dear Beautiful.

I remember..
when I saw you for the first time,
Everything paused for a while.
All I could do was stare.. stare...
You were just beautiful.

It has been such a long time
When my heart raced to someone.
It was you who had me,
It was you who knew me.

I wanted your body,
I wanted your soul.
It was me who lived in his own head,
It was me who made his own plans.

I remember..
One cold night at your bedside,
Seeing your eyes looking over me.
I couldn't ask for more,
I was in heaven.
You were so beautiful.

But I must let you go..
Because I'm still living in my head.
Time is right for you to go,
Far away where you can span your wings...
Far away where you can find your ground.

I will miss your smell.
I will miss your smile.
I will always remember, your eyes..
Oh, you are so beautiful.


I love you Jeni.


-Your Shadow.

At Home.




































It only takes me about 3 minutes to have a fire like this.

On Demand.





































































This is the shit for me right now.
She reminds me of this particular hottie I know...

Feeling.

I have seen fear. I have seen faith.
Seen the look of anger on your face.
And if you want to talk about what will be,
Come and sit with me, and cry on my shoulder,
I'm a friend.

And if you want to talk about it anymore,
Lie here on the floor and cry on my shoulder,
I'm a friend.

Trust Me...The Pleasure is All Mine.

I've not worked for about a month and I love every minute of it!

Baby Boy.



Only B&W can capture him; Rocco.

Inconveniences.

Not having a car to get around sucks. I feel like a teen all over again.

Dear You.

How I wish I could surrender my soul;
Shed the clothes that become my skin;
See the liar that burns within my needing.
How I wish I'd chosen darkness from cold.
How I wish I had screamed out loud,
Instead I've found no meaning.

I guess it's time I run far, far away; find comfort in pain,
All pleasure's the same: it just keeps me from trouble.
Hides my true shape, like Dorian Gray.
I've heard what they say,but I'm not here for trouble.
It's more than just words: it's just tears and rain.

How I wish I could walk through the doors of my mind;
old memory close at hand,
Help me understand the years.
How I wish I could choose between Heaven and Hell.
How I wish I would save my soul.I'm so cold from fear.

I guess it's time I run far, far away; find comfort in pain,
All pleasure's the same: it just keeps me from trouble.
Hides my true shape, like Dorian Gray.
I've heard what they say, but I'm not here for trouble.
Far, far away; find comfort in pain.
All pleasure's the same: it just keeps me from trouble.
It's more than just words: it's just tears and rain.

First Time For Everything.






































This blows big time, but
the materials are replaceable... I get to live another day.

Weird.

This morning, I've heard this song at three different places.

You're Beautiful

My life is brilliant.
My love is pure.
I saw an angel.
Of that I'm sure.
She smiled at me on the subway.
She was with another man.
But I won't lose no sleep on that,
'Cause I've got a plan.

You're beautiful. You're beautiful.
You're beautiful, it's true.
I saw you face in a crowded place,
And I don't know what to do,
'Cause I'll never be with you.

Yeah, she caught my eye,
As we walked on by.
She could see from my face that I was,
Fu*king high,
And I don't think that I'll see her again,
But we shared a moment that will last till the end.

You're beautiful. You're beautiful.
You're beautiful, it's true.
I saw you face in a crowded place,
And I don't know what to do,
'Cause I'll never be with you.
You're beautiful. You're beautiful.
You're beautiful, it's true.
There must be an angel with a smile on her face,
When she thought up that I should be with you.
But it's time to face the truth,
I will never be with you.

Cool Bumper Sticker

"I Think, So I'm Dangerous."

I'm Sorry.

Recently, one of my co-workers lost his mother-in-law. He and his wife were taking it fairly easy since her health wasn't at the best of condition. It seems they’ve been expecting it to happen. Then a month and a half later, his father went to a hospital for having a heart attack. He told us that they operated on his father and he's doing much better.

Two weeks after, we've received the bad news. His father passed away at the hospital while he was asleep. There were a thick and heavy air circulating this building. I could not imagine what he had to go through. You've lost one of your parents who created you then raised you through all of these years. I've felt very sorry for his loss.

When he showed up at work later that morning, most of us who knew the news went to pay their respect to him. I waited for a few minutes then went to see him at his desk. He was sitting upright and looking at his computer screen; his hand was on the mouse like he wanted to do something or act busy. I didn't know what to say for a while. He looked up at me from his chair, and I hugged him. He was silent, he didn't say a word. I kept patting him on his back and told him that I was sorry. He nodded his head while looking at his computer screen. I've told him his father is in a better place now and he's looking down at his son from the above. He started to let his tears run down on his face... He grabbed my hand then kept pondering it on his chest. Then started to mumble... "Let's do business, let’s do business" (note: this is one of my favorite saying at work. My co-workers love to use it when they are working on deals). He calmed himself down then told me he appreciates.

Sometimes people need others to help out on situations. I'm not saying that I deserve a recognition for what I did. As I noticed many of employees "just" dropping by then saying their "sorry for the lost," I managed to spend a few minutes with him to share my condolences... Then we're in a mutually respecting place where I understand his lost and he appreciates my intention.

Hey Rob, sorry for your lost. I know, you're doing your best to overcome this sadness... Don't forget, all of us are here to help each other when one of us is down...

Rob, let's do business!

Wise Guy.




Dana, thank you for your support.
Once again, you've proven your wisdom.

Gone.

I don't know what's worth fighting for
Or why I have to scream
I don't know why I instigate
And say what I don't mean
I don't know how I got this way
I know it's not all right
So I'm breaking the habit
I'm breaking the habit tonight.



Forget the nonessentials.
It's time put on my business suit.

Wait!

My super superior (a.k.a: ss) hasn't replied yet on my vacation request. I bet he didn't read it yet.. If tomorrow is my day off, and he'll be off on Thursday.. so knowing my luck, I'll get to find out on Friday, even Monday.. Damn, I do have an appointment tomorrow!.. No, you CAN drive in this weather!.. you need to come in tonight so I don't have to on my dayoff.. Ok, you're scare of this weather?.. ok, ok, I'll see you tomorrow.. and you need to be on time.. I need to get my haircut tomorrow.. It will be cold tomorrow.. What's for lunch tomorrow?.. I want to do lunch with her tomorrow.. Or dinner?.. I dunno.. wait, they said it will be freezing at night.. her room stays at 60 degrees.. I do not get blackets to survive that indoor weather.. why am I thinking so much?.. but the room smells awesome.. Cool ass kitty too.. now I'm thinking way too much.. Damn, late again...

I need my vacation processed.

Snow Day.

Man, it's snowing! Well, it's not snowing heavily but I'm excited to see the "first snow day" of the year.